learning in the quiet places

We've been in many transitions the last few months. I've spent the last two months parenting and running daily life mostly on my own. It's been a growing time for sure. There have been freak outs and breakdowns. There have been victories and moments of strength that I didn't see coming. There have been airport discussions and road trips. There have been dance parties and days filled with tears.

And in all of it I'm learning so much about myself, about my marriage, and about my parenting. I'm finding myself so open to learning right now. I want to study myself and figure out what it is that holds me back in the crystal moments. I want to stare at my kids and watch them grow and learn. I want to grab my husbands hand and never let go.

I'm reminded more and more that these are the moments that matter. That when I get quiet and alone (which is rare of course) I long to learn more about what it is that makes me tick, what it is that is birthing inside of me right now.

In this time I'm attempting to read and fill my mind with things that help me look longer towards my life and what matters to ME personally.

I'm really loving the  Creating My Goddess Year Planner that I downloaded a couple weeks ago. I know it's almost May but it felt like the right time for me to continue to evaluate what I wanted for this year. I love the colors and the ability to fill it in when the moments feel right. (I am affiliate for the Goddess Planner and that means I get some money for every purchase that you make through this link. This small income helps feed my latte addiction. ;) )

And that fit right with the reassuring advice here. I've always felt bad for the way my interests and dreams wax and wane but this gave me a bit of peace.

I'm totally mostly content to sit in these moments. There's a part of me that wants to burst into what's ahead but I want to do the work first, to dig a bit and be fully ripe for whatever lies before me.